I need to get back into the swing of things here. I've been a slave to others and their needs for the last 6 months and I've not spent a moment on me and what interests or inspires me. I am truly disturbed that I haven't picked up my paints or even a sketch book in all this time and the result of the neglect is a truly DULL person.

Although I'm not a particularily suspictious soul or even spiritual, I have come to believe that there might just be a master plan out there. "Why do I feel this way?", you ask? Well, its because that no matter what efforts I seem to make to steer my own path, I get run off the rails with a sickening regularity and this seems to happen as some kind of cosmic joke. Kinda like "So you think your really in control, do you? HA HA HA ".

I recognize my role in things and my duty to others but, seriously folks, this has been insane! I have done NOTHING, and I mean NOTHING, but work, eat(when I remember) and sleep(when I can) for months. OH YEAH, did I forget to mention the worrying, sweating and fretting? How about the sleeplessness, the nail biting and the utter and complete despair?

Lately, my idea of a day out is a trip to my local hospital to chat about cellual science with guys in white coats. Its truly depressing, huh?

Well, to be really frank, that is what I AM....truly depressing. In fact, I am surprised that I have any friends left.

Truth is, I am fun! I am a fun person with a vibrant, albeit loud, personality who used to attract alot of people. But these last 6 months have sucked it all out of me. There is still a vein to be tapped there somewhere and I will find it..I SWEAR! Just give me some time and a little patience and the real me will reappear.

My last blog entry was Dec 21st!!!! I cannot believe it. I've had one hell of a time these last 6 months and I've not even thought of sharing it here as it was too damn depressing. Suffice it to say that Murphy's Law was in full effect in my life and I am, only now beginning to see a tiny light at the end of a really long tunnel.

SPRING!!! Yes I said spring. Looks like it might be here (or maybe its just a tease). Either way I've been waiting not-so-patiently for it and I'm chompin' at the bit to do something and go somewhere beside a hospital.

Hello Blog world.
I'm back.
Maybe.
We'll see.